Apr. 21st, 2009

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In a typical cascade of weather related health events-

1. We started getting heavy rain and thunderstorms yesterday afternoon along with a drop in temperature of about 15 degrees daytime high which happened in under two hours (more at night).
2. My brain said- the headaches will start NOW
3. Cognitive function decided to change processor speed from average to SLOW (dinner was therefore eaten out- no cooking for me)
4. The thunderstorms continued all night leaving me with about three hours of sleep and maybe a partial seizure thrown in from either sleep dep or lightning (nor sure which- does it really matter?- and I have a hard time describing partial seizures that occur when I'm already sleepy and in bed) and I had the tingles all night (yes, I can feel the electrical current in my body when my neuro system isn't right)
5. I was able to get up this morning since I was never really asleep after 3:30am and with Hu's help prep dinner (crock pot meal) so we can eat at home tonight, but I was still 30 minutes late for work- so I'm in SLOW motion.
6. As it stands right now my brain is moving in half speed and all I want to do is curl up in a ball and sleep. I really want to ask to leave, but my boss just doesn't understand and I'm pretty sure he'll say no- but I'm 'electrical' right now. I should be at home.
7. So I have to wait and see and hope I don't seize.


Side Note- The dog with epilepsy also seemed to sleep fitfully and was twitchy all night too
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If Ben Folds had written it back then, and you had had the maturity to listen to it- you would have listened to Cologne and known that THAT was your breakup song with T. All the drama swirled around you- you caused it, but it wasn't about that. You both just had to let go. All the other songs from eight and a half years ago were just the drama leading up to the breakup. That is the song. T was better for it. You were better and not in the long run (it never would have worked, but he needed to be set free from you), but that's how you always are.

Flash forward:

And now, again, Way to Normal is about you letting go of all the regrets of compromising for the past few years. You're breaking up with parts of yourself that aren't genuine and finding the parts you've buried for a while. You're finding the way back to 'normal', which isn't anyone else's normal but your own.


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